Update - 2 busy weekends, not as much accomplished as I would like, but we had some lovely weather and the Grandparents had quick visits last week. Still lacking motivation, then I get down on myself for not being MORE motivated!
So here is what I have done
1) Dust - house is very dusty...
2) Vacuum - and I mean really nook and cranny vacuum
3) Try on everything in closet, take pictures of out fits so I can remember what I have to wear
4) clean office
5) wash sheets
6) find pretty fabric and cover chair in bedroom
7) hang letters and pictures in X's room
8) pack away car seat and exersaucer
9) look in shed for fall wreath and grey sweater coat
10) make homemade bread
11) Clean out hall closet so it can be use full
12) pull weights out of shed
13) Can we rearrange office in a better way?
14) clean car
15) buy touch up paint for car's scratch, repair
16) clean kitchen table off
17) organize kitchen drawers
18) pack up baby bottles
19) clean bathroom cabinets
20) go through magazines
21) art display of some type for X's "artwork"
22) make baked potatoes--sounds really good!
So 7.5 out of 22. I could do better. We are debating going home this weekend. A trip I dread, we just try and cram SO much into 36 hours that it is not relaxing and leaves me so stressed out and feeling behind for the start of the work week. On top of all that the time changes this weekend and adjusting X's schedule has not been going so well. Monday night he did great and was happy and playing until nearly 7:30 and in bed by 7:40. Last night he fell asleep while nursing at 7. I suppose all we can do is try our best and grin and bear it next week when he is trying to fall asleep at 6.
10.28.2009
10.16.2009
100 miles a minute.
My brain works at 100 miles a minute, minimum. I can't seem to slow it down. I have SO many things I want to try, read, learn. Lack of focus and follow through are my biggest problems.
This week as been a major failure in the no eating out and saving money areas. I suppose we will try again next week. There has been a lot of stress from some marital discord as well as some medical tests, that the result could have a profound impact on all of our lives. Profound as in serious lifestyle change, nothing life threatening.
It's Friday. The weekend is full of potential, unfortunately more often than not our weekends have been full of illness. Seriously 5 out of the last 11....those are pretty rotten odds. Last night X was a puke-tastic mess, in the car seat....of course! So B and I are just praying we don't get sick as well. There has been much handwashing and dousing in hand sanitizer.
So what is on my endless list of things to accomplish (in order as they pop into my head):
1) Dust - house is very dusty...
2) Vaccum - and I mean really nook and cranny vaccum
3) Try on everything in closet, take pictures of out fits so I can remeber what I have to wear
4) clean office
5) wash sheets
6) find pretty fabric and cover chair in bedroom
7) hang letters and pictures in X's room
8) pack away car seat and exersaucer
9) look in shed for fall wreath and grey sweater coat
10) make homemade bread
11) Clean out hall closet so it can be use full
12) pull weights out of shed
13) Can we rearrange office in a better way?
14) clean car
15) buy touch up paint for car's scratch, repair
16) clean kitchen table off
17) organize kitchen drawers
18) pack up baby bottles
19) clean bathroom cabinents
20) go through magazines
21) art display of some type for X's "artwork"
22) make baked potatoes--sounds really good!
This week as been a major failure in the no eating out and saving money areas. I suppose we will try again next week. There has been a lot of stress from some marital discord as well as some medical tests, that the result could have a profound impact on all of our lives. Profound as in serious lifestyle change, nothing life threatening.
It's Friday. The weekend is full of potential, unfortunately more often than not our weekends have been full of illness. Seriously 5 out of the last 11....those are pretty rotten odds. Last night X was a puke-tastic mess, in the car seat....of course! So B and I are just praying we don't get sick as well. There has been much handwashing and dousing in hand sanitizer.
So what is on my endless list of things to accomplish (in order as they pop into my head):
1) Dust - house is very dusty...
2) Vaccum - and I mean really nook and cranny vaccum
3) Try on everything in closet, take pictures of out fits so I can remeber what I have to wear
4) clean office
5) wash sheets
6) find pretty fabric and cover chair in bedroom
7) hang letters and pictures in X's room
8) pack away car seat and exersaucer
9) look in shed for fall wreath and grey sweater coat
10) make homemade bread
11) Clean out hall closet so it can be use full
12) pull weights out of shed
13) Can we rearrange office in a better way?
14) clean car
15) buy touch up paint for car's scratch, repair
16) clean kitchen table off
17) organize kitchen drawers
18) pack up baby bottles
19) clean bathroom cabinents
20) go through magazines
21) art display of some type for X's "artwork"
22) make baked potatoes--sounds really good!
10.08.2009
Where I am and where I am going.
I wanted to check in on how I am doing on those goals I had in August.
1) I want to be organized and put together. Both at home and work. Currently the house is a disaster, my desk at work is a mess and I look like a 45 year old woman, and I am not quite 28.
I feel much more put together lately. I bought some new clothing, cut my hair very short....it is really cute, and spent some money on some skin care stuff that will hopefully clear my icky skin up. I am trying to be more organized by planning ahead. I have check lists, the menu and a list of goals online as well as many things on my iPod. I am physically feeling better. After September, even after a stomach bug and mastitis I have bounced back quicker than I would have earlier in the year. I am also hopping the mega doses of vitamin D I am taking will help my energy continue to return
2) I want to be able to focus on what I am doing not worrying about every other task in my head. Sitting and writing this is hard because I have 10 other ideas of things I want to do.
I still need to be more mindful as I do things. I need to remember to write the random thoughts down and process them later
3) I want to improve myself. Not only be more put together and look better, but to put time into what I enjoy. I would like to explore my faith/ beliefs, work on scrapbooks, get back into cooking, and maybe find some type of exercise that makes me have more energy
In the last 3 weekends I spent 2 cooking. I have not cooked so much in a very long time. It is satisfying to think my freezer is full of yummy things for winter nights. Something about the fall weather encourages me to cook. We joined a gym, and hopefully I get up the nerve to go tonight. I also finally got off the waiting list and into a playgroup that seems very active. I have only been to one event, but I am really trying to get out of myself and meet new people.
4) I want to save more, spend less and not feel deprived. I am trying very hard to reduce our frivolous spending so we can pay off bills and live the life we want. I really need to sit down with B and discuss this with him.
B and I have discussed finances, but we have had difficulty putting what we discussed into actions. We are going to try cutting back on groceries and unnecessary spending. We have a few things looming though. The University forgot to withhold city taxes on B for the last few year so they are coming out of our check. The payroll tax break may end up hurting us in the long run, we may owe as much as $1000 on our taxes this year.
5) I want to be more on the ball at work. I lack focus and tend to get side tracked. Luckily due to some situations at work, things are slow. I feel like I am just sliding by. Needing to find a new job may still be a very real possibility in the next year. I have slacked since getting pregnant. Perhaps feeling accomplished at work will give me the energy I need to stay motivated in the evenings.
The desk is sort of clear. My motivation is still lacking, in part because work is this very weird limbo place right now. I am trying to accomplish 3 things a day, so far no luck.
6) B and I need to find time for each other.
This is a must. We really haven't spent a lot of time together. I was a little hurt last weekend. My mom was visiting and offered to watch X while we went out, B never seemed interested in going out with me unless I wanted to watch a horribly gory and bloody movie. We need to get a baby sitter sometime, but that is another expense I don't want to deal with right now.
1) I want to be organized and put together. Both at home and work. Currently the house is a disaster, my desk at work is a mess and I look like a 45 year old woman, and I am not quite 28.
I feel much more put together lately. I bought some new clothing, cut my hair very short....it is really cute, and spent some money on some skin care stuff that will hopefully clear my icky skin up. I am trying to be more organized by planning ahead. I have check lists, the menu and a list of goals online as well as many things on my iPod. I am physically feeling better. After September, even after a stomach bug and mastitis I have bounced back quicker than I would have earlier in the year. I am also hopping the mega doses of vitamin D I am taking will help my energy continue to return
2) I want to be able to focus on what I am doing not worrying about every other task in my head. Sitting and writing this is hard because I have 10 other ideas of things I want to do.
I still need to be more mindful as I do things. I need to remember to write the random thoughts down and process them later
3) I want to improve myself. Not only be more put together and look better, but to put time into what I enjoy. I would like to explore my faith/ beliefs, work on scrapbooks, get back into cooking, and maybe find some type of exercise that makes me have more energy
In the last 3 weekends I spent 2 cooking. I have not cooked so much in a very long time. It is satisfying to think my freezer is full of yummy things for winter nights. Something about the fall weather encourages me to cook. We joined a gym, and hopefully I get up the nerve to go tonight. I also finally got off the waiting list and into a playgroup that seems very active. I have only been to one event, but I am really trying to get out of myself and meet new people.
4) I want to save more, spend less and not feel deprived. I am trying very hard to reduce our frivolous spending so we can pay off bills and live the life we want. I really need to sit down with B and discuss this with him.
B and I have discussed finances, but we have had difficulty putting what we discussed into actions. We are going to try cutting back on groceries and unnecessary spending. We have a few things looming though. The University forgot to withhold city taxes on B for the last few year so they are coming out of our check. The payroll tax break may end up hurting us in the long run, we may owe as much as $1000 on our taxes this year.
5) I want to be more on the ball at work. I lack focus and tend to get side tracked. Luckily due to some situations at work, things are slow. I feel like I am just sliding by. Needing to find a new job may still be a very real possibility in the next year. I have slacked since getting pregnant. Perhaps feeling accomplished at work will give me the energy I need to stay motivated in the evenings.
The desk is sort of clear. My motivation is still lacking, in part because work is this very weird limbo place right now. I am trying to accomplish 3 things a day, so far no luck.
6) B and I need to find time for each other.
This is a must. We really haven't spent a lot of time together. I was a little hurt last weekend. My mom was visiting and offered to watch X while we went out, B never seemed interested in going out with me unless I wanted to watch a horribly gory and bloody movie. We need to get a baby sitter sometime, but that is another expense I don't want to deal with right now.
10.04.2009
A good weekend.
It has been such a beautiful weekend. The weather feels like fall, cool and crisp. We went to the farmers market on Saturday, then shopping. I bought X some clothes for fall.
Today I have accomplished SO much. I made chicken - 2 meals worth in the freezer and chicken salad, 2 meals worth of meatballs, a GIANT pot of chili, meat for stuffed peppers tomorrow, apple pie and buffalo chicken dip. It is nice feeling so productive.
Hopefully I can carry this energy with me into tomorrow. Last week I discovered I have a vitamin D deficiency, which can cause fatigue.
Today I have accomplished SO much. I made chicken - 2 meals worth in the freezer and chicken salad, 2 meals worth of meatballs, a GIANT pot of chili, meat for stuffed peppers tomorrow, apple pie and buffalo chicken dip. It is nice feeling so productive.
Hopefully I can carry this energy with me into tomorrow. Last week I discovered I have a vitamin D deficiency, which can cause fatigue.
9.24.2009
Frustration
Why can't things that I need to get done be done. Why can't B do what needs to be done. I spent all day Saturday cooking lots of food to freeze and make life easier. I got sick on Sunday and he took care of X. It is Wednesday now and the kitchen is still FILTHY. IT SMELLS. And honestly I feel like it should not be my responsibility. B is supposed to do dishes. I am so upset about it I am still awake at 1:30 am. I have to get up for work in 4 hours. My sister is coming on Friday. Every night I expect him to help around the house he is either so absorbed in the TV I cant even get him to answer a question or he falls asleep and is so out of it I can not get him to wake up.
I know he does a lot. He gets up and gets things going in the AM. He makes our lunches and most of the time gets the wee one ready for the day. He does the yard work, but really it is about once every 3 weeks. I pay the bills, plan the budget, make a menu, grocery shop, wash diapers. I am the only one that comes up with and chops up all of X's food.
I know he does a lot. He gets up and gets things going in the AM. He makes our lunches and most of the time gets the wee one ready for the day. He does the yard work, but really it is about once every 3 weeks. I pay the bills, plan the budget, make a menu, grocery shop, wash diapers. I am the only one that comes up with and chops up all of X's food.
9.16.2009
You win some you lose some.
Well it has been a week and what progress have I made so far?
1) I want to be organized and put together. Both at home and work. Currently the house is a disaster, my desk at work is a mess and I look like a 45 year old woman, and I am not quite 28.
I bought some new clothes this weekend, some new potions for my skin. I put earrings in and have been wearing some lip gloss on in the morning. I feel better about myself....just a few changes. I am also getting my hair cut for the first time in 2 years tomorrow.
2) I want to be able to focus on what I am doing not worrying about every other task in my head. Sitting and writing this is hard because I have 10 other ideas of things I want to do.
B and I have a spreadsheet on google documents with our 3 goals for the day at both home and work and our goal for the week. The first day it kept me focused, yesterday not so much and today it remains to be seen. I like the idea though, to only have a few things to worry with instead of all the clutter in my head.
3) I want to improve myself. Not only be more put together and look better, but to put time into what I enjoy. I would like to explore my faith/ beliefs, work on scrapbooks, get back into cooking, and maybe find some type of exercise that makes me have more energy
See #1 I want to get the house picked up and start doing yoga again. I am debating going to a knitting group at church.
4) I want to save more, spend less and not feel deprived. I am trying very hard to reduce our frivolous spending so we can pay off bills and live the life we want. I really need to sit down with B and discuss this with him.
Really need to work on this. Currently I am the only voice of reason when it comes to spending money, and I am easily swayed by B. I need to sit down and discuss our goals, I keep putting it off because B tends to get defensive. This is imperative it happens; we have car repairs and possibly owe taxes this year.
5) I want to be more on the ball at work. I lack focus and tend to get side tracked. Luckily due to some situations at work, things are slow. I feel like I am just sliding by. Needing to find a new job may still be a very real possibility in the next year. I have slacked since getting pregnant. Perhaps feeling accomplished at work will give me the energy I need to stay motivated in the evenings.
#1 addresses this
6) B and I need to find time for each other. He has been very affectionate and sweet lately. It has been nice. I still find myself trying to find reasons to be angry with him. That is not good.
We are back in roommate mode. It is not fun. I miss B. He is just a grouch, but he tends to get this way when the seasons change. Something needs to change, but I don't even know where to begin.
1) I want to be organized and put together. Both at home and work. Currently the house is a disaster, my desk at work is a mess and I look like a 45 year old woman, and I am not quite 28.
I bought some new clothes this weekend, some new potions for my skin. I put earrings in and have been wearing some lip gloss on in the morning. I feel better about myself....just a few changes. I am also getting my hair cut for the first time in 2 years tomorrow.
2) I want to be able to focus on what I am doing not worrying about every other task in my head. Sitting and writing this is hard because I have 10 other ideas of things I want to do.
B and I have a spreadsheet on google documents with our 3 goals for the day at both home and work and our goal for the week. The first day it kept me focused, yesterday not so much and today it remains to be seen. I like the idea though, to only have a few things to worry with instead of all the clutter in my head.
3) I want to improve myself. Not only be more put together and look better, but to put time into what I enjoy. I would like to explore my faith/ beliefs, work on scrapbooks, get back into cooking, and maybe find some type of exercise that makes me have more energy
See #1 I want to get the house picked up and start doing yoga again. I am debating going to a knitting group at church.
4) I want to save more, spend less and not feel deprived. I am trying very hard to reduce our frivolous spending so we can pay off bills and live the life we want. I really need to sit down with B and discuss this with him.
Really need to work on this. Currently I am the only voice of reason when it comes to spending money, and I am easily swayed by B. I need to sit down and discuss our goals, I keep putting it off because B tends to get defensive. This is imperative it happens; we have car repairs and possibly owe taxes this year.
5) I want to be more on the ball at work. I lack focus and tend to get side tracked. Luckily due to some situations at work, things are slow. I feel like I am just sliding by. Needing to find a new job may still be a very real possibility in the next year. I have slacked since getting pregnant. Perhaps feeling accomplished at work will give me the energy I need to stay motivated in the evenings.
#1 addresses this
6) B and I need to find time for each other. He has been very affectionate and sweet lately. It has been nice. I still find myself trying to find reasons to be angry with him. That is not good.
We are back in roommate mode. It is not fun. I miss B. He is just a grouch, but he tends to get this way when the seasons change. Something needs to change, but I don't even know where to begin.
9.10.2009
And here I go again!
August flew by in a swirl of busyness and sickness. X had an ear infection and ended up at home for 4 days. Then I was sick for over a week. All of my goals and plans never came to fruition. I did manage to have a yard sale, B ran his first race, and X's birthday was a success. Then we went on vacation last weekend. We have not had a weekend free since the beginning of August. My little sister J is having freshman roommate drama so she is coming to stay this weekend.
Maybe I am going about this all the wrong way, expecting everything at once. Though everything goes through my head at once. What is that I hope to achieve? How long until I reach that goal? What do I need to do to get there? There are SO many things where do I begin?
1) I want to be organized and put together. Both at home and work. Currently the house is a disaster, my desk at work is a mess and I look like a 45 year old woman, and I am not quite 28.
2) I want to be able to focus on what I am doing not worrying about every other task in my head. Sitting and writing this is hard because I have 10 other ideas of things I want to do.
3) I want to improve myself. Not only be more put together and look better, but to put time into what I enjoy. I would like to explore my faith/ beliefs, work on scrapbooks, get back into cooking, and maybe find some type of exercise that makes me have more energy
4) I want to save more, spend less and not feel deprived. I am trying very hard to reduce our frivolous spending so we can pay off bills and live the life we want. I really need to sit down with B and discuss this with him.
5) I want to be more on the ball at work. I lack focus and tend to get side tracked. Luckily due to some situations at work, things are slow. I feel like I am just sliding by. Needing to find a new job may still be a very real possibility in the next year. I have slacked since getting pregnant. Perhaps feeling accomplished at work will give me the energy I need to stay motivated in the evenings.
6) B and I need to find time for each other. He has been very affectionate and sweet lately. It has been nice. I still find myself trying to find reasons to be angry with him. That is not good.
There are so many other things, but this is probably more than enough to start with.
I have 2 choices. Things can stay the same or they can change. I am giving myself until Christmas. That is a little over 100 days. So how do I begin? I tend to like to jump in head first, but we can see how well that works. Though baby steps I see no progress and get frustrated and give up.
Maybe I am going about this all the wrong way, expecting everything at once. Though everything goes through my head at once. What is that I hope to achieve? How long until I reach that goal? What do I need to do to get there? There are SO many things where do I begin?
1) I want to be organized and put together. Both at home and work. Currently the house is a disaster, my desk at work is a mess and I look like a 45 year old woman, and I am not quite 28.
2) I want to be able to focus on what I am doing not worrying about every other task in my head. Sitting and writing this is hard because I have 10 other ideas of things I want to do.
3) I want to improve myself. Not only be more put together and look better, but to put time into what I enjoy. I would like to explore my faith/ beliefs, work on scrapbooks, get back into cooking, and maybe find some type of exercise that makes me have more energy
4) I want to save more, spend less and not feel deprived. I am trying very hard to reduce our frivolous spending so we can pay off bills and live the life we want. I really need to sit down with B and discuss this with him.
5) I want to be more on the ball at work. I lack focus and tend to get side tracked. Luckily due to some situations at work, things are slow. I feel like I am just sliding by. Needing to find a new job may still be a very real possibility in the next year. I have slacked since getting pregnant. Perhaps feeling accomplished at work will give me the energy I need to stay motivated in the evenings.
6) B and I need to find time for each other. He has been very affectionate and sweet lately. It has been nice. I still find myself trying to find reasons to be angry with him. That is not good.
There are so many other things, but this is probably more than enough to start with.
I have 2 choices. Things can stay the same or they can change. I am giving myself until Christmas. That is a little over 100 days. So how do I begin? I tend to like to jump in head first, but we can see how well that works. Though baby steps I see no progress and get frustrated and give up.
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