Memories from a year ago...

As it gets closer to X's birthday I keep thinking about last year. At this point I was SO pregnant, uncomfortable, swollen and tired. I was very impatient. I had my Doctors appointment and found I was dilated to 4cm and 75-80% effaced. It seemed like anytime the baby could be born. The week before my due date was the hardest at work because people kept acting surprised that I was still there and pregnant. I remember the sweet old couple in the apartment next to us ran into us on Sunday and it was the first time she realized I was expecting. Mrs. F mentioned it, then seemed very surprised when I told her I was due in 3 days!

The 25th was a Monday and I had given up hope that he would be born without an induction. I never let myself hope he would be born before Friday. So when my water broke that night I was a little surprised.

Remembering all of this makes me want another baby SO much. The excitement and joy of it all. But now I know what labor is like, there is so much less unknown so maybe it would be less stressful in that regard. Honestly if we had the money for daycare I would definitely be considering getting pregnant again. Which seems insane since I am so tired all of the time and cant seem to get my life together with one kid. But things don't feel complete. I really want another baby and I really wish I could have one sooner than later


August goals.

It seems August is already here. I have not managed to make much progress in accomplishing all I set out for myself in July. X was baptized last weekend. I did manage to pull of a very nice meal for our families who came to mass. I made chicken tortilla soup in the crock pot, salad and had berries with angel food cake for dessert. I need to focus more on my small accomplishments instead of everything I should be doing. I have the tendency to flit from one idea or task to the next. It makes it very difficult to focus.

I think that will be my goal for the next week to be more mindful of what I am doing and focus on the task at hand. I am going to do one task a day around the house....simple things that need to be done

Monday - dust
Tuesday - mop / vacuum
Wednesday - clean bathroom
Thursday - clean fridge
Friday - change sheets

I need to regain my focus at work. I have enough work to do for months, but I manage to procrastinate and I could be more productive. I should have the lab in better order, and there I go worrying about everything I should do. I can't help it. It makes sense if the lab was cleaner then I wouldn't have to clean things before I start a project. Really I need to pick the place up. Tomorrow at work I am going to try and stay fully focused on work, which is SO hard for me. I have brains to slice. I am going to do that, prepare some slides and spend at least 1 hour picking up the lab.

I can do this I have 8 hours at work and at least 3 baby free hours in the evening. I should be able to accomplish SO much. I am going to try my hardest to make the most of it!